The 3 gods

Melina made herself at home with her coven as she was more close to Ashley and Kimberly as those two were best friends whom came in pairs as joey usually stuck next to Melina you hardly saw one without the other. Erinn was always doing her own thing but always circled back around . Melina also had to adjust to her coven she had created but at the same time had to deal with the prejudices of her self. She didn't come back home with the lap of luxury or in better conditions other than her and Dana had to share rooms and she saw how her mom treated Dana compared to her. Dana was private schooled all her life so when she started going to Melina's school the cost of her knowing of her was limited in public . Dana was in a grade ahead since Melina was held back two years in school.During this time there was one sure way to get attention from the popular crowd . Girls did not rule the popular vote where if you dated the most popular girl you were in. In in this school required you to appease the three manwhores of the middle school crowd . Chad,Eric,and Shane . These trio boys acted like middle school Greek gods and all others were beneath them unless they said so. Melina remembered seeing Chad as he was one of the boys that had iced hair ,blue eyes and looked like he always wore eye liner when he didn't . He was a quiet guy and always had a girlfriend on his arm . He gave more opportunities then the trio . But he was also nicer then the rest he was a popular guy with a nice guy complex . Melina saw he was just pretending to be a jerk to keep up appearances but he actually made no waves not like Eric and Shane. Eric was the king that ran this kingdom and if you wanted to be anybody of note you were to be his. He would invite you to a party get you drunk and collect his prize and boom instant popularity in a box . Melina remembered Ashley from elementary school as she wasn't nice to her person but she was decent enough to leave an impression on her . Ashley was beautiful,blonde,and had a four point oh G P A . She was part of the academic clubs and when she saw her transitional popularity coming to an end she was one of Eric's drinking conquest in sixth grade .The price for her continued recognition came at the cost to her innocence as the politics of teenage boys is to use what they could to score prime booty from well naive desperate teenage girls. Melina grew sad when she realized this was the hierarchy she returned too as all these so called popular girls made themselves available to these three teenage boys that barley had hair on their balls. Melina wanted to make the world free from opportunist who manipulate girls from their social choice . These three boys ran this school like their own personal harem and if anyone challenged their rule they would shut it down. Eric had a short temper and even more a shorter attention span. He would only like you as long as you kept him entertained. Ashley and him were back in forth from all the girls he cheated on her with and she lost friends and made friends and her popularity was only in the grace of Eric's like of her.I saw how they moved and yes I did want to be apart of that . Loved and adored from the lack of love and understanding I had in my life. No words of sympathy was ever offered to me for the things that happened to me up to this point. For someone who had never been shown any sympathy I had a lot of sympathy what was going on to others around me. The true heart of a queen.When Dana joined the school she jumped right on the band wagon of being a Harley in the harem of the three kings of middle school. She was in eighth grade and she was becoming a cliche side chick as she allowed them to use her for popularity. The friend she once had was now just another member of the middle school harem . Dana told Melina not to tell people she was her sister now everyone knew her as the witch in gym class who ran with the rejects . Some class mates thought it was cool but other thought of it as the arrival of the female anti-christ . Melina took the snickers and comments with grace . But what didn't happen was no one messed with a mcnally sister because we were the bad girls here. We had a reputation not to be messed with.No one mentioned to Melina their knowledge of her past but it didn't stop them from making comments and making jokes about melina's appearance and the four outfits she owned . Melina's mother wasn't great at providing for her and she knew she had to get a job if she ever wanted anything nice for herself. So during the day Melina was middle school witch and average student and at night she was part time worker and babysitter.Mia was still young and our mother had a soft spots for mia and all she had done to stay out of the system. Paula was allowed free reign and when she came home Jamie was there for a little while before she was kicked out for having sex in the house with her fiance at age nineteen. But in truth my mom was looking for a reason as she allowed boys to move in with us for periods of time and mia had an entire husband and baby under her roof and Paula was constantly having boys in her room.When Dana lost her virginity to the screwed up concept of the middle school hierarchy she decided she didn't want to be Melina's friend any more and wanted to room with Paula instead since she was experienced as being free with her body and she wanted to go where she wanted like Paula did .Dana and Melina constantly fought and when hands were thrown it was like WWE smackdown in the home as my mother did what she did best . She stepped out of the way and allowed us to run the house. She never stopped Melina and Dana from their fights and encouraged it sometimes. Paula and Dana began to hang out and Melina lost all respect for her friend as she watched the mess she had become knowing the path they were heading. There was a time where Melina was forced to go to a family psychologist as she made complaints that Melina was jealous of her mother's relationship with her new step daughter Dana. When Melina sat there at watched her mother place the blame on Melina for why she didn't accept Dana she lost all respect for her mother as a weak sheep that she was. For Melina's entire life she swore her mother was the big bad wolf in her stories but now as she sat in therapy for her mother's request. She saw the sheep she truly was.I suppose it took that moment alone to realize all of the smoke and glamour my mother hid behind as a self serving protagonist of her time. She sat there by Darwin acting like a devoted partner and a new found step mother to her step daughter when all the while she was placing herself weakly behind a man and hiding like a sheep behind a man who she met four years ago over her own born children. She was chosing the needs of a man over the needs of her children and as she looked at the obvious betrayal she watched played out in a therapy session placing the blame of her relationship choices of Melina because she wasn't going to take it anymore. This action alone made Melina see her mother for whom she really was as she was the reason in her mind why women treated each other so badly instead of support each other . She showed Melina it was every woman for herself and there was no allies no aide for one another. She showed her that the man came first in the need of the children and we were there to take the blame for bad parenting.Melina looked the therapist straight in his face and said one devistating statement that she knew would be the catalyst to her and her mother's relationship." With a mother like her I accept the blame that is not my own as I see I have no other choice in the matter." The well placed words was a cut throat outline of my opinion of my mother and her self preservation outlook. My mother's discontent in my utter candor of the situation placed a cold air between us and I knew once those words came out of my mouth there was no going back now. As they say a stone one thrown can't be un-thrown and a word once spoken can't be unspoken . I opened the gates that flooded the damn as the gates could not hold the resentment I had now placed on my mother . The session ended as we went home in silence and when I mean silence not in a deep sense contemplation of actions but a stone cold shoulder that would last for weeks as the house was now as silent as a library. That's how women in our family worked things out. We shut everyone out in silence as it began to deafen our communication between us. I had nothing to say to my mother and she had nothing more to say to me and that was how we handled it as I refused to take back anything I made admission to in that session she made to paint me as the spoiled ungrateful child who needed to be disciplined for being placed last in her own family.Dana moved into Paula's room after that and her and Paula kept my mother busy with sneaking out and yelling and screaming at my mother like they were on the same level as her because she put them on the same level as her refusing to be nothing more then a friend instead of a parent they both needed. This back and forth went on for some time as Melina rejoining her solitude she was afforded . She enjoyed everyone finally leaving her alone. Paula and Dana began to drive my mother crazy between the boys and sneaking out and having many bad behaviors between them . Dana was a wild child and her hanging out with Paula only amplified it . She already had a father he gave her bare minimum instructions and now she was having sex at thirteen she was on a slippery slope for her own downfall. That is the thing with girls hanging out with other girls whom have been around the block their habits seem to rub off on each other and in.return enforce more reckless behaviors. Dana and Paula would find trouble where they saw fit them be at odds with each other over being in each other's spaces. Paula was training Dana to be a generic version of a tramp. Dana fool heartedly followed like a lamb to the slaughter. Melina watched how her mother let them run wild and even encouraged if we were going to party to do it in the house so she could watch us. We needed a parent and we ended up with a sorority sister. Dana and my mom went like this for about two years as we went through middle school and as the girls at school was unforgiving. They would often write notes and pass it around the class making fun of the clothes Melina wore because she couldn't afford name brand jeans or shoes . Melina had hips and jeans from express didn't fit her because they were ment for hipless giants that were six foot . As Melina was not a stick figure not a six foot troll she either had jeans to baggie going up a size to fit her or too long where she would be stepping on them. Melina finally found a pair of L.E.I. jeans that fit her and she used her first paycheck from working at Chick -fil-a and the children's place to buy her some clothes from Macy's where her mom now worked . Melina was fifteen now and had two jobs and on the weekends still helped her mom at the restaurant. At this point Melina was working to eat and to provide for her nephew . She was basically a mother in the making as she had worries no normal fifteen year old needed as she jiggled work,school,even co-parenting with her sister who was still managing to keep it together being a young married mother at age seventeen. Melina would watch her boss Matt at Chick-fil-A as the rotation of the food would be tossed every hour to ensure freshness instead of leaving old food on the shoot under heating lamps. She was only being paid five dollars and fifty cents an hour and part time work as well. She saw all the wasted food as she knew her hunger was only satisfied when she was working and when she went home there were too many mouths to feed and she had to study also sometimes. She made a deal with her boss she wouldn't ask for a raise if he gave her all the food he was going to toss out in the end of her shift. He agreed and every day she worked she brought home stale waffle fries and old sandwiches and nuggets . She did this not only for her to eat but to feed her nephew as she would wake up at three in the morning and immediately go downstairs and grab her nephew as her sister Mia could sleep through a raid . She would take him upstairs as they would shower together as she washed him and herself . Then she would dress him and put him in the high chair with his breakfast as she continued to get dressed. She would return to clean him up and change him fix him a bottle and put him in the playpen in front of the television with cartoons on . Then she would kiss him and leave for school for the day . When she would come home he would have the same bottle and be wet for sitting all day in the playpen as she washed him and fed him and then had to get ready for work. Some days when she was supposed to work overtime on the weekends she would have to switch shifts with other employees because she would wake up with her nephew in front of her room unsupervised as Paula was supposed to be watching him and she left to go down the street with some boys . Melina's boss often reminder her that the kid had a mother and she was not his mother but Melina knew if she didn't watch him it wouldn't make her any better than her sisters leaving a baby alone with no supervision.Paula never got in trouble for leaving the baby alone and this continued for many months in this routine. You could say Melina was a teenage mother as well as she was acting like a mother to her nephew who was just passed off to her . ​​