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Melina couldn't go to her mother to help her with his discomfort as her mother could care less the comfort of her daughter and she saw that time after time. Melina was in seventh grade and needed relief as she started hanging out with a new girl named Jessie who had one sibling that was about to be a big sister as her mother became pregnant at age forty and put her and her future sibling thirteen years apart . Jessi's mother experienced the same difficulties with her daughters cycle and she put her on birth control to ease the period pain and regulate her periods. Melina was bleeding twice a month now sometimes ten days straight and off ten days the back on ten day. Jessi convinced her mother to sign for contraceptive for Melina as Jessi picked up two prescriptions a month and gave them to Melina to help her. Sure Melina could have asked her mother but asking her mother to do with anything dealing with sex made her uncomfortable and defensive for some reason. She'd rather risk the secretcy then the wrath of her mother. Melina had been taking the pills for a month now and her periods began to lessen and even out to where it was only four days twice a month and they were lighter and with no pain hardly to bare. I know what your thinking why didn't she just take a midol for the pain. Melina had a phobia of swallowing pills as no matter the size or what she did she would choke on the pill no matter how much water. The birth control pills was small enough to make her not cry when she took them . When Melina was a child you better not get sick around her mother. Any sign of a sneeze or a sniffle in the house she would line up entire house and we would sit in a semi circle as she crush little red pills of Benadryl and Sudafed into a power and she would put it in her hand and make all of the girls sick or not inhale it through their nostils . We use to take the pill version but after melina's phobia surfaced she had her mouth held to swallow pills as a young child . When her mother uncovered her hand she didn't swallow and spit the wet medicine out. So her solution was to crush it up and make her snort it this started at age four . Snorting medicine blended thought her nostrils to ensure the medicine wasn't spit back out. So the idealism of her letting her mother know she was on birth control via a friend's mom who she trusted more then her own mother was a catalyst waiting to happen. Sharpie and Melina talked a few times on the phone but it felt weird as Dana was always trying to compete with her Everytime they hung out together. Melina finally just gave up on the concept as Dana got mad at her for her inability to date without Melina's participation. This little rule only applied for a few months as melina's mother had no constitution for consistency. She couldn't mother her step daughter no more than her real daughters and it showed when Dana stopped showing up to bowling games because she had better things to do then hang out on Saturday nights with her parents. But Melina still came and went to the food court to eat and soon she was forced to bowl in Dana's place and Melina did try her best to be terrible at the sport but still scored the highest . Pretty soon Melina made the business adventure she would try to play if they made it worth her time. The deal was five dollars from every person's score she would beat and she would take off Saturday from work at the fast food place to play with the bowling league . Otherwise she would just let them suffer and she didn't have to play at all. Because she was just there for the food as trusting her mother to cook her anything edible was like eating poison and hoping it won't kill you. The bowling alley was the only place she got decent food except from school and her breaks at work . At the time Melina was also still participating in softball , and pageants her mom forced her into when she absolutely hated wearing dresses and wearing makeup. Convinced her it was a way out of this town with a scholarship to the school she wanted to go to which made Melina wonder where her college money her uncle left her when she died if she needed a scholarship.

Melina inspired to go to collage become a professional writer and an archeologist as she lived indiana jones and lived history as she had a profound connection to the past as she could swear she had past lives with the way her soul settled sometimes.

But her mother broke down that archeologist has to fund their own adventure until some museum wants to buy their grave junk. Then the books she would write she would find them in the trash or stained with food and coffee as her mother didn't even want to read her daughters passion for writing though it was a waste of time and thought.

To Melina simple minds felt insecure about the brightness of others as it overshadowed their singular perspective. She stopped showing her interest to her mother as it held no value in the grand scheme of things. It was almost demeaning and made Melina feel often diminished and felt discouraged of her dreams. Melina knew her mother was not pro- Melina as of late everything she had done was wrong to her mother.

But some people see faults in others actions as it reflects their own inner demons they refuse to meet in the mirror.

On top of carrying for her nephew and dealing with her sisters idiot husband thinking he ran the house. Melina started to make a lot of money doing this some night clearing sixty bucks a game . One night melina's mom left her wallet at home and Melina had her purse where she kept her personal items and money inside . Melina's mom asked Melina to cover the game for the night and she would pay her back when she got home. Melina nodded as she was waiting for her food at the food court as she pointed to her purse on the table. When her mother went to get the money that where she found the birth control pills. Melina came back hand full of food as her mother held it up to show her the packet as there was three in there for a month supply she had. " What the fuck is this? So your finding new ways to be a little whore aren't you?" Her mother accused her as she yelled making the entire room stop. " Who gave these to you. Who told you that you could have these?" She yelled louder. Not letting Melina defend herself. " I need them for my periods." Melina tried as she knew her efforts would be futal . " Liar. Your just a slut admit it. And now you know how to hide your messing with boys and not get caught." He mother fired back as she knew this was how her mother would react and why she asked her friends mom to help her and not her own mother. " I swear Melina if you become a teenage mom I will kill you myself ." Threatened her mother. " That's Rich this coming from someone who was a teenage mom herself." Said Melina like word vomit that came out without a filtered thought. Than a slap shocked her as her mother had slapped her so hard her step dad had to grab her and stop her from hitting Melina . Her mother grabbed the pills and trashed them in front of her as she knew her mother thought the worst of her no matter what she did. Like her own inner turmoil poured out of her and spilled onto Melina. Like she hated everything she represented.