Wars
Larameeka and Melina had been roommates for a long time as she would have been roommates with her little sister if there was space available but unfortunately since Paula and Melina couldn't be in the same room together because they were a danger together her younger sister Keisha shared rooms with Paula. Paula was a typical teenager as she had posters of her favorite bands hung in her closet as we were not allowed to have any personalization items to decorate our borrowed rooms. So we were forced to decorate one side of a closet wall as our own. Paula's favorite band at the time was I M S T B U posters that littered her closet of alternative rock groups. She would frequent remind people with that phrase which translated to IT MUST SUCK TO BE YOU. She would rambunctiously yell at random people she didn't like I M S T B U , MOTHER FUCKERS. Like she was making some teenage rebellion of her own personal vindication. She listened to loud rock music to sleep and one rule was to never touch her radio whole she slept. Like larameeka both used radios to sleep at night and since Paula and kiesha was across the next room where our bathrooms connected I often fell asleep to rap and rock in the back ground. One night the rock music stopped and there was a fight. I already knew it before we rose to see the scuffle as Keisha larameeka's eleven year old sister had broken Paula's solumn rule. She turned off her radio in the middle of the night. Both me and Larameeka scrambled to the room when the fight broke out as Paula had kiesha pinned to the wall by her throat and Larameeka lost it and grabbed Paula and I instinctively grabbed Larameeka off of my sister Paula. It was chaos and mayhem and it had now became a fight between two sets of sisters. Paula was many things to me . Cruel, unfair, and treacherous to me . But she was my sister and no one no matter what put their hands on my sister. While me and Paula corner Larameeka her little sister rushed me and grabbed me as I threw her against the wall knocking the breath out of her. By then the entire house had woken up in our ruccus and they were holding back all four sisters trying to break up the fight before the house parents woke up from the noise and we would all get punished . Then she said it " your moma is old , and ugly, and bald , and a fat whore!" Screamed kiesha as she was held apart from the group. I felt such anger of her slurring untrue words against my mother as I jumped and started throwing girls aside in such a strength screams erupted trying to get to the unruly girl who insulted my family. Larameeka saw the danger her little sister was in and grabbed her sister from my grasp as she was being choked now by me. Larameeka grabbed her sister from my grip as Paula and the other girls pulled me into another room. Paula and the other girls took me into another room and neither one of us needed to return to our rooms because of the fight. Paula looked impressed in my fight I put up against Keisha as she thought . " I'm good. I'm calming down . I'm sorry I wasn't going to let them hurt you." Protested Melina as the other girls soothed her from her new temper. I was always an even tempered child until it came to my sisters. I couldn't understand why I felt the need to protect them from everyone and everything even though it was one sided. " No. She started it . " Reasoned Paula as I looked at her curiously as all my life Paula was in opposition to me in everything I did and now she was agreeing with me as I wondered why she was agreeing with me. Because Paula agreeing with me never served anyone except Paula. " But I shouldn't have put hands on her. I shouldn't have done what I did." I said as I often felt remorse for and sort of violence as it felt like it currupted my soul and offended my spirit being mean. " Yes you should have. You did what you had to do. She deserved it talking about our mom like that." Reasoned Paula as I saw it clear as day. She desired strife and chaos . She wanted me to be as chaotic as she was. She wanted me to be the problem . " I should tell her I am sorry. I didn't mean to snap like that." I reiterate my remorse. " You will not. They started a war and a war they will get. No one messes with the Mcnally sisters." Said Paula proud of her little sisters weight in the fight. That is when I saw it . She only wanted to be my sister when I was causing pain to others . Yes I did start a war over some protective instinct to keep my sister safe from all the evils in the world but the one evil I couldn't keep her safe from was herself. Days went by and Larameeka and me moved uneasy around each other as no one told on us what happened as the two pair of sisters moved uneasy around each other. Around that time Paula adopted a puppy she called lucky from the house parents litter of puppies where she begged to keep one and she took in a German shepherd and collie breed . We were all getting ready for church and lucky being a puppy was jumping all over the girls as Larameeka pushed the dog off of her as so did the other girls as they loaded the van to go to church but Paula didn't see it that way she watched and waited for her opportunity as she used Larameeka touching her dog as an excuse to jump her and make her hits count as the two girls brawled over a dog and really it was Paula waiting for her opportunity to get her rage against Larameeka as she assumed I would hide off kiesha and we would be sisters in a fight again. I had to right the wrong in this moment because Paula had no more merit in this fight then all the other girls pushing her dog off of them from making their dress dirty. If I didn't stop Paula she was going to drag me in this little war with her. I grabbed Paula and stood in front of her as Larameeka recovered and Paula hit me in the back as I blocked her from her goal. I suffered blow after blow from Paula as I wouldn't move. She hit me over and over in her rage because I was keeping her from her goal. Larameeka looked at me oddly as she saw I was taking hits for her. The house parents finally stopped Paula's assult on me as I looked at Larameeka her hair now messed up and dress dirty .
" You stupid bitch . I will get you!" Yelled Paula at Larameeka . " No you won't. Just stop it Paula you know you had no real reason to do that but to be you. Enough Paula . Just stop it!" I yelled as the adrenaline rose in me as I now started to feel the pain to my head where Paula hit me over and over . " Larameeka are you okay. I'm sorry for what my sister did . I don't want to fight with you." I said as I knew all of this had to stop before we crossed a point of no return. I understand her love for her sister because it was the same I had for mine. She was always keeping her sister Keisha out of trouble and I was keeping Paula out of trouble so we could agree to disagree and let by gone's be by gone's . Larameeka nodded understanding the notion I was trying to make and accepted my apology. Just like that the war was over before it had a chance to truly start. The house parent found out what happened and wanted to punish Larameeka and Paula . " Don't punish them it was a simple misunderstanding. A bad mood between girls. " I defended them because I knew if questions were asked all of us would be in trouble and we all would suffer a week of thistle pulling or extra chores added. This would not satisfy Paula but fuel her anger if she was punished for something she wanted to happen. This would give her reason to have the bad blood she desired against the sisters. I couldn't let this happen . Watching my back more than I already had to . Larameeka was grateful to me for defending her and sparing her the punishment we all deserve in our actions. I knew she didn't want her little sister to be drug into this and I didn't want to keep fighting a war when we could call a truce instead. But I will always remember the sisters as they made me see my strength and weakness all at once . I would do anything for my family to defend them to the end but it was also a weakness to be exploited as well knowing they could use me to fight a useless and unnecessary war.